F I R E

D e a r D i a r y ,

Wednesday, February 1, 2012 ; 6:45 PMY

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i'm annoying,

why don't you just hate me

instead of making me confused

Thursday, May 5, 2011 ; 9:03 PMY

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If there are pills to mend broken hearts.

i'll taken an overdose.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011 ; 12:18 AMY

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Hello,

am i losing you?

Friday, February 4, 2011 ; 12:24 AMY

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you know what follows up from an explosion?

is a break down.

why?

sometimes you can hold it sometimes you cant.

blah!

the above has no relevance with the situation below. although both made me equally pissed.

Seeing everything in such a close view, and having everything affected me personally.

I just want to share my views.

I dont think its about being a Chinese, I dont think it is the Chinese culture to play around with other people feelings. and I certainly think that this is the norm in China.

and hearing this coming from a girl from China, pissed me off and i'm sorry I am to the extent that I responded in such a rude way.

anyway..

whatever it is,

I have no respect for this kind of people

and if he is complaining to us to stop saying stuff about him,

and that he has no friends now, is not really our fault.

Because its his actions that has put him in that state right now.

Firstly, I give no respect to guys who two time

Secondly, I put no trust on guys who lies

Thirdly, I hate people who are cowards

Fourthly, those who think that they are always right

oh and should i mention, those who have the heart to hit girls

If you don't feel that you don't have to say sorry because of what you've done then don't think we'd (or at least i'd) be sorry for you.

its amazing how ignorant and naive you are or whatever it is you are

go live your live with your little mistress, ha hope you enjoy the toilet just dont let me catch you guys in there again or yes i'd say it straight at your ugly face

" i don't understand why you think this is normal but is it your family that's like that "

don't shed crocodile tears

You know what

if the love has faded and you own up to her,

I wouldn't have fault you

If you faced everything, and explained everything in truth,

None of us would have really turned our backs on you

and neither would your friends ( who calls your mistress, uh, little MISTRESS btw)

and uh they call you playboy dude. no face shits

okok let me chill

Wednesday, February 2, 2011 ; 1:49 AMY

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to love or to be loved?

what happens when you started out with being loved

and then ended up loving more than being loved.

......... have faith. even when the nights are full of sorrow, for the morning brings joy.

this blog is getting too personal and i think this would be the last post you'd see,

i think i'd privatise the blog.

yup have fun reading in the next few hours/ day maybe

; 1:27 AMY

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I was at Monica's room

apparently she have this really cool book its called 1001 pearls of bible wisdom

so anyway i got a few quotes that i really love and made me understand things better

and possibly is relevant to whatever i am going through right now.

"Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward of faith is to see what you believe"
by Saint Augustine

there's another quote that i stumbled upon by CS Lewis

A perfect man would never act from a sense of duty ..... Duty is only a substitute for love (of God and of other people) like a crutch which is a substitute for a leg. Most of us need the crutch at times; but of course it is idiotic to use the crutch when our own legs can do the journey on their own.

sometimes i feel i'm ready then one day i just lost it and then i build it up again and i lost it again

this time i hope would be different

Monday, January 31, 2011 ; 1:07 AMY

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Have you ever fell in love

do you know how it feels to be in love

this is stupid post GO TO SLEEP YOU GEEK